Recently I attended a lecture on the chemical industry. The speaker was from CPCB. And every example he pulled out from the 3 decades of chemistry behind him made my mind resonate. Shook the volumes of this amazing science in me awake. He made me realize....I Love Chemistry....and everything related to it. The core of chemistry runs through me like blood! Thats when I actually submitted to the fact that I should do something about it.

The raw instances from the then sleep- inducing lectures in college, fill me now with inexplicable ecstasy. I cannot form the right words to explain the madness we enjoyed while shaking those conical flasks with weird smelling substances, which were sometimes corrosive or noxious or even explosive, or when we used to wait upon an unknown solid to melt with them filled in capillaries glued to thermometers dipped in conc. sulphuric acid, just to know its mysterious identity, or the lab day when we created the stinky "boot-polish" ingredient beta-naphthol and innocently decided to put it in our bags, and how the stink came home with us for months to come! Not to talk of the silly high we used to feel when we correctly detected all the ions in our salt mixtures, the childish delight that took us over looking at the brilliance of colors that we could produce with our very own hands! What to say of the iridescent blue copper sulphate-ammonia crystals we gave life to in our beakers?!

Then I figured that I still know the named reactions....the sleepless nights I spent in understanding the mechanims behind free radical rxns....sleeping with 2 volumes of Finar (The Bible of chemistry) and Solomon's on my bed side... How i thought i'd flunk the organic chemistry exams and made farras to sail over it...but never really needed them as I could always leave out the named rxns in choice!

But I remember them now...

I burn in hell when I hear of class mates who have stayed patient to discover the science of it! The Jealousy serves as another driving force..Now I wonder whether I have done enough justice to myself by depriving my self of such pleasures as those I got with chemistry. I wish I could do somthing to go back to it....

Presentation...Will I ever Finish???

I have to start with my pptn. Its on 12th. I havent read anything to start

Looks like I have almost a week....But....given that sat and sun is off and im not working from home- I just have 4 days.
And take out tues as it has to be ready by then to show it for any edits- I have 3days

Then any interim work i'd have to do might take one day- so i have 2 days

And given that today half day is already gone-I have 1 and a half days

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Then taking into account the time iam spending in chatting and blogging

I have only 1/2 day....PRAY FOR ME!!

I need a BREAK!!!

The feeling of wanting a break is not new to me. It was born with me i guess...

And not having got enough breaks till now, have now gradually transformed into mammoth proportions. The feeling raises its ugly head every now and then (not too often, just every day at the start of the day at work). As i leave home for work, there's an involuntary force that pulls m,e back. I fight it hard and step out to start my new day. As I enter office past 10, the battle seems to have been lost. I don't feel like working. Again. Today. One more day.

I need a BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently I found out I'm not alone. The feeling may be universally confined to our office space. But is still universal. The universe consists of Sugandh, Geetika, Ramya, Lavanya, and maybe even outside...(Pooja). Call it a social problem. The problem of work. The problem of working. The problem of having to work. The problem of being forced to work. See! It has many forms!!

So this social problem needs a revolutionary change. The change is beginning here. Right here. Right now!

One day. One break. One vacation. One month off from this rut. I wouldnt mind sitting all day, anywhere. Just to gossip. just to chat. just...doing nothing...at all.

What do i write about???

Draaaaagggg....thats what life's been for the past one week....I'm dragging myself along to office...dragging myself back home...Oh yea i was reading a book (which i just remembered), and i reached the last chapter. Right then i got the " i'll finish it later" mood. So thats lying around...idle...just like me...

Oh yea the "n" onn my keyboard is not working..i mean it works but it works too much...so i get extra "nn"s .Hope something happens and its starts workin less...just like me!

So much for writing my random thoughts...